Hey folks

These past few months have been...different and somewhat difficult. I dont ever think I have felt this way before. Its not that I have felt especially sad or anything like that, I have just felt that nothing mattered anymore. Pointless is propably the right word to use. My creative motivation and inspiration has not been present for the last 4 months. I have found this weird because I hounestly enjoyed playing with 3ds max, and I would easily have choosen that over a wet Saturday night. I know it is linked up with the troublesome backpain, which prevents me from sitting due to pain in the lower back. But I would never had thought it would affect me this much.

I have been to the doctor and turns out I have prolaps in my lower back, which is causeing inflation to the nerve going trought the spine and down my right foot. I am still waiting for an apointment with a specialist due in October some day. Then I will proabaly have to wait another 4-5 months for an operation. So here I am, spending most of my time laying down or walking the dog. I should be working now, earning lots of money...but no.

I think its time for a change, its about time to look at the postive side of things. I have family who supports me, real friends who stand by me.
Its about time I pull myself together. Expect to see more from me, I'm freaking back!

Ok here I go, I'll try and write as much as I can in 10 min because I shouldn't sit to long due to some troublesome backpain. It is killing me, so I have decided to go to the doctor on the 2nd of June and have it looked at. It all started 2 years ago when I was painting the house. I experienced shooting pain down the leg. First I didn't care to much about it and hoped that it would go away. I did some reading and found out that I had the symphtomes of sciatica...The sciatic nerve is the biggest nerve in the body and runs from the lower back all the way down into the leg.

I got back from England on the 18th of may and concerning the weather this has been the best day so far.Today I've been lying outside enjoying the sun and listing to the radio. I'v even walked the dog, thought he like the weather his tongue was hanging outside his mouth most of the time.

I haven't been much on the computer due to the backpain, and I doubt that you will see much creativity on my part in the very near future. I have been drawing in my sketchbook and want to make a painting, but I dont have a canvas or painting or any brushes...so..I'll put it on hold for now.

Since I cant sit as much as I'v done erlier I will have to find some hobbies that I can to standing...maybe I will learn how to play the piano..or gitar. I really suck at both..lol. Maybe a good reason to start learning it.

Since it is summer is here now its time to clean our family's boat. Maybe I should try and the the boat certficate this summer? That would be cool..

That was more than 10 min, time to go...

Ok, so I had a few thing I'd left undone for lazy reasons. You know, stuff like having messy room, staying unshaved. So I decided to something about it because I dont like the feeling I get when nothing gets done. Soooo, I got up and did, cleaned my room, which lead to the entire apartment. Then took a bath and got shaved. Its almost like starting fresh. Now I feel like working on the school assignments again and keep moving forward. Its allways better to stay ahead of schedule instead of allways chasing time, trying to hit the deadlines. So with this in mind, of to work I am

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